Topic 3 – The Perpetrating of a Hoax
A reasonable question at this point would be how could I possibly not be who I think I am? How could 8 billion people be duped? In truth, not all 8 billion have been duped. There have always been those outside the lines, those who somehow escaped the conditioning or who, sensing the seeming contradictions around them, fought like blue blazes to break free. Those sorts of people will be the topics of later blogs. For now, hold onto your skepticism, it can be healthy at times, but also open your mind to a different possibility—to my attempt to explain the inexplicable—to put forth some notion as to how a sense of a human being resident within us can occur when there isn’t an actual substantive person called, for example, Christina Carson. What can go on in the mind of a human being to create that experience? The closest I can get to an explanation, such as it is, is to suggest that the two major factors involved are the number of thoughts that can be produced within the mind and the speed with which that happens. Here is the only example I’ve ever come up with that can suggest how the experience of “you-ness” arises.
Think of the animation process before computers took over. You have a stack of sheets of paper, each one with a drawing slightly different from the one before it. If you studied the stack, sheet by sheet it would be difficult to sense what the sheets were trying to show. But if your flip the pages quickly, it’s like magic. All of a sudden the images come to life. And if you follow your response to it, you will note you even begin to respond emotionally to the action, and the characters that materialized merely because you saw enough images, quickly enough that they actually appear animate.
This is not a conspiracy, this hoax that rules our lives. It is a product of our nervous system coupled to a pattern of conditioning that orients us to almost total self-absorption – meaning a continuous focus on what’s going on in our minds, as opposed to what’s going on around us. We are persistently focused on what our minds are “bringing to life.” It explains why we essentially live inside our own heads due to all the stories and conversation taking place and enlivened by our mental animation of it. We become, in this way, the center of our own world. Our level of self-absorption is so extensive that we rarely experience much of anything that is going on in the world outside us, the physical world. And before you cry out no—that’s not true—just hold that thought until we get to the nature of the species that results from a nervous system that is exceedingly fast and productive, coupled with a syntactical conditioning that divides the world into “me and everything else.” Yes, you have interests in others and the world, but your interaction at every level with them takes place from the orientation that you are the subject and they are the object in most every aspect of relationship. Interacting with the world from this orientation creates a relationship with the world unique to human beings, one that basically makes us odd man out in the family of life.
Are you beginning to see how we are getting closer to how our problems come about and why we suffer so? Stay tuned for it’s not like we have forever to undo this. And more important, it could be so wondrously different. One such example is suggested by the words of Mary Oliver, from “The Visitor”:
I saw what love might have done
Had I loved in time.
She could have as easily broadened that into: I saw what life might have been like had I lived in time. See if you can get a sense of this strange notion that you are not the entity you’ve thought all along. Then, keep an eye out for Topic 4 – Me, Myself and I, as I make it clearer still.